blackeye.
somehow, i feel that it's just about time to let everyone know.
you could only hate me for doing this. and that's better than the indifference you have with me now. for the longest time that i've been keeping this to myself, time didn't seem to have helped. distance also didn't. maybe, just maybe, bringing this to everyone's attention will do me the favor of moving on. after all, i have nothing to risk. perhaps, the hopes of, at least, being civil with you. and i can't take it any longer when you, still, say that we are friends. because that i have already risked long before.and i lost it. i can take mockery. from you. much more from other people.
i have long surrendered. i know what lies at the end.
with this, i am not soliciting comfort. not at all pity. i am saving the better of myself. i only wanted to let go of this self. after more than seven long years, i am certain, i deserve to.
so, please hate me for this. let me experience the strength of the muscles that you've been working so hard for. on my face, i prefer. so, that everytime i would be looking at the mirror, i'll be reminded of how much you hate me. that. that might just give me the reason to hate you in return.
am sorry.
you could only hate me for doing this. and that's better than the indifference you have with me now. for the longest time that i've been keeping this to myself, time didn't seem to have helped. distance also didn't. maybe, just maybe, bringing this to everyone's attention will do me the favor of moving on. after all, i have nothing to risk. perhaps, the hopes of, at least, being civil with you. and i can't take it any longer when you, still, say that we are friends. because that i have already risked long before.and i lost it. i can take mockery. from you. much more from other people.
i have long surrendered. i know what lies at the end.
with this, i am not soliciting comfort. not at all pity. i am saving the better of myself. i only wanted to let go of this self. after more than seven long years, i am certain, i deserve to.
so, please hate me for this. let me experience the strength of the muscles that you've been working so hard for. on my face, i prefer. so, that everytime i would be looking at the mirror, i'll be reminded of how much you hate me. that. that might just give me the reason to hate you in return.
am sorry.
8 bitchings and comments:
you'll find in time that there's nothing in hate, too. but forgiveness is long-lasting.
"naku, baby. he's gonna get you. he's really gonna get you. c'mon, hide under my saya. kiss me na rin once you are there, ha?"-- charlse's gf
who'll forgive who? forgiveness comes after hate.
hahaha! hahahha! just hahahha!
cant wait till he reads this.
let! i really wish you are here now more than any other times.
catch you later on line. i'm sure it's not that bad naman. at least i hope so.
maybe, it's not. well, at least, u can hope so.
that has some heavy stuff rhy. on your previous comment, you asked 'who'll forgive who?' The answer is simple, yourself. Forgive yourself first before anything else. Apparently you've lost someone very important, give yourself time to grieve. And let it all out. Remember that it can only be as dificult as you want it to be. and you have the choice to just let go. But dont take too long, you are depriving yourself and other people the opporutnity to share life and possibly happiness with you. as always, rhy, this too shall pass.
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